Friday, May 29, 2015

"How To Kill A Mockingbird" - Literature in Film Blog 3

I've never seen this film until now, which is surprising because it is right up my alley: black and white, old fashioned, funny! *Disclaimer, I missed a section in the middle, but I have a pretty good idea of what happened in between* All the while as I watched the film, I kept trying to piece together the story. What did Boo Radley have to do with everybody? Why were the kids obsessed with him? Why do the kids call their dad by his first name? What's the purpose of the story being told from a child's perspective/memory? In natural theatre major fashion, I was trying to put together everything all at once (I still am). But my most favorite and most interesting aspect of the film is the nature of the trial. The "radical" sense of a white lawyer defending an accused black man really brings intrigue, considering the year the story takes place (1930s). Institutionalized racism has existed since slavery (and even before then). But the trial is more than just a trial against a black man, it touches upon the dynamics of racism and rape in what I believe to be a modern situation. Tom Robinson (the accused) isn't the actual perpetrator, it's the woman who attacks HIM. In the twenty-first century we struggle to believe that a woman could rape a man, so I'm positive it was eve harder to believe that a WHITE woman would kiss/assault a BLACK man. And as Atticus said, she was tormented by the societal guilt of her crime, which is why she accused Tom Robinson of attacking HER. The idea of a white woman being sexually attracted to a black man was too absurd for her family or society, so she took out her guilt and misplaced it on the object of her affection. I am shocked that this kind of situation was addressed in the 1930s, let alone the 1960s when the film was produced. If we still struggle with this issue now, how bad was the struggle to believe it then? Racism, sexism, and societal pressures influence the interpretation of this story and real life application of this situation. #THESTRUGGLEISREAL

Thursday, May 21, 2015

"Precious" - Literature in Film Blog 2

All I can think about is how complicated Precious' mom is. She is the most intriguing character I've come across in a long while. I think the film sets her up to be a villain, we're supposed to hate her throughout the film. But then the final scene hits us like a brick wall. Her own hate towards Precious, her cruel violence, her nasty words were all in the sake of self-preservation and self worth. Mary (Precious' mom) only wants to be loved, and her eyes Precious stole the man who loved her. The pain that she feels, the hate that was inevitable, relates so closely to what I fear will come for me. I would like to think that I would care for my child and protect it, but my self value and low self confidence might get the better of me. I have so much empathy for Precious' mom.

Precious perseveres immensely throughout her life. I'm obsessed with Law and Order: SVU and one of the characters said to a victim, "You did what people know how to do during trauma. You survived." That's exactly what Precious did. She survived all the hate, all the violence, all the abuse, and all the shit piled onto her life. I always think that people will crack under all the awful things, it's why the cycle of abuse is endless and influential. But Precious survived, she lived, and she came out of all the awful crap in order to make a better life. I guess there really are hearts of gold lying beneath the violence.

Monday, May 11, 2015

"Rebel" - Literature in Film Blog 1

My dear friend and classmate Anthony Beltran made a film called "Rebel" for his senior project. He pulled themes and concepts from the films "Rebel Without A Cause" and "They Shoot Horses Don't They". While the recurring themes of teenage angst, self-destruction, violence, and perseverance were all really interesting and focused on, it was the cinematography that I was captivated by. The scenes in the woods, the different angles of the actors, and the fantastic editing are what really told the story. Just like in theatre, film creates conventions that send a message or a reminder of a certain aspect of the story. In "Rebel", there was a focus and parallel between the violent adults and the violent teenagers. The counselor's rage and outburst in the hallway mirrored the tough guys violent outburst with his girlfriend. The psycho "kitten-torturing" kid would have small moments throughout the film with a creepy and menacing smile, a repeated symbol to emphasize the boy's insanity.

But perhaps my favorite moment in the entire film is when all of the students are watching the film "They Shoot Horses Don't They" and the scene from the movie, when the man shoots the woman, reflects off of the psycho boy's face. It's an absolutely marvelous moment that bring insight into the character's development as a creep and loony. The scene is also reminiscent to the scene in "Psycho" where the skeleton head is apart of the faint transition into Norman Bates' face.

Some really good visual moments and symbols they not only stimulate my academic brain, but make my sympathetic heart burst with pride for my peer.

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Analysis of "The Youngest Daughter" by Cathy Song (Blog #12)

The sky has been dark
for many years.
My skin has become as damp
and pale as rice paper
and feels the way
mother’s used to before the drying sun   
parched it out there in the fields.
 
Lately, when I touch my eyelids,
my hands react as if
I had just touched something
hot enough to burn.
My skin, aspirin colored,   
tingles with migraine. Mother
has been massaging the left side of my face   
especially in the evenings   
when the pain flares up.

This morning
her breathing was graveled,
her voice gruff with affection   
when I wheeled her into the bath.   
She was in a good humor,
making jokes about her great breasts,   
floating in the milky water
like two walruses,
flaccid and whiskered around the nipples.   
I scrubbed them with a sour taste   
in my mouth, thinking:
six children and an old man
have sucked from these brown nipples.

I was almost tender
when I came to the blue bruises
that freckle her body,
places where she has been injecting insulin   
for thirty years. I soaped her slowly,
she sighed deeply, her eyes closed.
It seems it has always
been like this: the two of us
in this sunless room,
the splashing of the bathwater.

In the afternoons
when she has rested,
she prepares our ritual of tea and rice,   
garnished with a shred of gingered fish,
a slice of pickled turnip,
a token for my white body.   
We eat in the familiar silence.
She knows I am not to be trusted,   
even now planning my escape.   
As I toast to her health
with the tea she has poured,
a thousand cranes curtain the window,
fly up in a sudden breeze.
 
 
I don't think I am emotionally stable enough to academically analyze this poem. I'm going to personalize my response because, at this point, it's all my heart can handle.
 
I first thought this piece would be about the struggles of the daughter, which would makes sense because of the title and the first few lines. I was ready to sympathize with whatever the daughter had gone through. It seemed to be aging at first, she wasn't used to her body and face aging. But I then realized it was about both the daughter and her frail mother. The dynamic between a sick mother and her child as caretaker is something very peculiar and complex. The duty of providing care to a parents, especially one who was dying, can be very tiresome and heavy with burden. The obligation to care for someone who took care of you drives the daughter's motivation to care for her mother. But the daughter's desire and need to want to live on her own and take care of herself is crushed by her obligations to her old mother. It becomes a battle between selfishness versus selflessness. 
 
I watched my father slave over his sick parents during their final years. My Mom-mom was sick six months before she died, bed-ridden and unable to take of herself in any form. She struggled to walk and to bathe herself while I was a little girl, so her completely sedentary state was an expected transition. For six months, my father and mother visited my grandparents three times a day everyday. As a tag team, my parents changed sheets, diapers, and clothes for my grandmother, as well as fed her medications and food. My Pop-pop could just barely take care of himself. I hated visiting my grandparents because I hated seeing them die. When Mom-mom passed, Pop-pop went crazy. Another year with him was all I unknowingly had left. He lived with us for a few months, but the burden to take care of him was too great. His delusional episodes cost my parents many sleepless nights as well as new worry lines taking up real estate on their faces. I couldn't bare to be home when Pop-pop was hallucinating. I hardly even visited him after we moved him to the nursing home. I don't recall what hurt more, watching my valiant hero crumble before my eyes or wishing he was dead in order to relieve my stress and pain. I love my grandparents, and their deaths have far more hurt me than any ordeal my family faced while they were living. 
 
This poem perfectly captivates what it's like to watch your loved ones go frail and the intrinsic struggle you face when taking care of them. 

*I'm sorry, I can not continue...

Monday, April 27, 2015

Analysis of "The World Is Too Much With Us" by William Wordsworth (Blog #11)

The world is too much with us; late and soon,
Getting and spending, we lay waste our powers;—
Little we see in Nature that is ours;
We have given our hearts away, a sordid boon!
This Sea that bares her bosom to the moon;
The winds that will be howling at all hours,
And are up-gathered now like sleeping flowers;
For this, for everything, we are out of tune;
It moves us not. Great God! I’d rather be
A Pagan suckled in a creed outworn;
So might I, standing on this pleasant lea,
Have glimpses that would make me less forlorn;
Have sight of Proteus rising from the sea;
Or hear old Triton blow his wreathèd horn.

The poem is about humans and their impact on the world. We waste our "powers" on us and our own advancement, turning away from nature. We put our faith, time, and energy into ourselves. We don't pay attention to the sea, the moon, the wind, NATURE anymore. It no longer moves us emotionally and spiritually. The speaker wishes he were a Pagan (from research, I discovered that meant he wishes to worship old values) so that he could look at nature and appreciate it better. That way, the speaker might be able to see powerful mythical gods rise from the sea. He wants to be able to adore nature whole-heartedly.

Astoundingly, in 1807 when William Wordsworth published it, this poem refers to very specific scientific aspects of nature ("this Sea that bares her bosom to the moon", the connection of the ocean's tides to the gravity pull of the moon) and reveals interesting predictions about the future understanding of the ocean. He also uses the ocean, sea, or things related to bodies of water (Gods) in order to elaborate his desire to appreciate nature. Wordsworth worshiped water, which is an interesting considering, again, the year of publication. Water was no a resource lacking or in high demand. Whereas today, we're trying to find new and better ways to preserve and and sterilize water. California is also currently going through a drought. So, again, Wordsworth predicts the importance of nature future and its values.

Wordsworth mentions Gods of the sea and ocean to put emphasis on the fantasy that nature will be worshiped again. He wishes to see glimpses of Proteus (Old Man of the Sea, controls the constant change of the sea) and Triton (messenger of the sea) mythical figures, which represents the absurdity and mythical quality to the desire to see nature valued again. The shift in the poem, where the speaker desires to be a Pagan (desire to live by older values, not worshiping nature) might represent the changing tides of the ocean, like the changing tides of human desire. While the poem, on the surface, may be about nature and the ocean, it's more likely about human nature, constantly changing ways of life and philosophy. 

Thursday, April 23, 2015

Analysis of "Death, Be Not Proud" by John Donne (Blog #10)

Death, be not proud, though some have called thee
Mighty and dreadful, for thou art not so;
For those whom thou think'st thou dost overthrow
Die not, poor Death, nor yet canst thou kill me.
From rest and sleep, which but thy pictures be,
Much pleasure; then from thee much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee do go,
Rest of their bones, and soul's delivery.
Thou art slave to fate, chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poison, war, and sickness dwell,
And poppy or charms can make us sleep as well
And better than thy stroke; why swell'st thou then?
One short sleep past, we wake eternally
And death shall be no more; Death, thou shalt die.

Woah, heavy stuff man.

I think the speaker is standing up to death, facing their fears and misfortunes caused by death. They kind of talk down upon death, the same way an ordinary guy stands up to a bully in one of those cheesy Disney channel movies. "Death, be no proud, though some have called thee mighty and dreadful, for thou art not so." The speaker defies the "power" of death ("nor yet canst thou kill me"). The speaker then goes on to say that the greatest people on earth will go with Death and that Death only follows the orders and ordeals of fate, kings, and men. Death uses many tools to collect his souls (poison, war, sickness). However, when the dead awake in heaven as immortal souls, Death will truly die and have no purpose.

John Donne uses beautiful diction and personification to bring this piece to life (literally, and quite ironic!). Starting with diction, Donne carefully crafted the sentences to create something that conveys so much more meaning than what appears to meet the eye. With address to Death directly and clear moments of defiance, the poem represents a confrontation from a subordinate to a superior. "Death shall be no more," strongly emphasizes the importance of the poem and its purpose of defiance. And the personification of Death (turning into a person) brings it to life (HAHA!). Death becomes more than a means to an end, it becomes a person who any sad or angry victim can publicly and physically blame.

Oh, if it were only that easy. If Death could be stopped by diction and defiance and dignity. As mere mortals, we are at Death's grip and mercy. For me, it is easier to cope with the possibility of death if I just believe that this time on Earth is our only time, so I should make best of it. Immortality, the after life, freak me out! I'm comforted by the fact that You Only Live Once. Like the poem "To the Virgins, To Make Much of Time", I believe that it's important to value and respect the time we have at hand. 

Monday, April 20, 2015

Analysis of "Rite of Passage" by Sharon Olds (Blog #9)

"Rite of Passage"

As the guests arrive at our son’s party   
they gather in the living room—
short men, men in first grade
with smooth jaws and chins.
Hands in pockets, they stand around
jostling, jockeying for place, small fights
breaking out and calming. One says to another
How old are you? —Six. —I’m seven. —So?
They eye each other, seeing themselves   
tiny in the other’s pupils. They clear their   
throats a lot, a room of small bankers,
they fold their arms and frown. I could beat you
up, a seven says to a six,
the midnight cake, round and heavy as a
turret behind them on the table. My son,
freckles like specks of nutmeg on his cheeks,   
chest narrow as the balsa keel of a   
model boat, long hands
cool and thin as the day they guided him   
out of me, speaks up as a host
for the sake of the group.
We could easily kill a two-year-old,
he says in his clear voice. The other   
men agree, they clear their throats
like Generals, they relax and get down to   
playing war, celebrating my son’s life


The poem is about boys and they're games of make believe at a birthday party. The story is told from the point of view from one of the parents of the birthday boy (perhaps the mom?). They continue to talk about the boys (the short men) that arrive for the son's birthday and how they compare in age and aggressiveness. The boys assess their capabilities to beat each other up. The boys play and one announces that they could beat up a two year old. The other boys agree (in a manner like war Generals) and they continue to play war in honor of the son's birthday.

  This poem reminds me so much of Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut. There's a hyperbolic tone that exaggerates the literal circumstance of the piece. Young boys, just out of their kinder years, play war and threaten to slaughter young toddlers. The poem praises the glorification and glamorization of war by placing the new burden on the shoulders of young boys. Boys watch their fathers and male role-models talk about war and death. Naturally, the young boys want to act mature and older, so they play war to feel like genuine adults. A giant game of make-believe all around. And with a title like "Rite of Passage" the poem is about the endless cycle that this vicious accidental teaching and how it "turns boys into men" by using praise of war. 

There's no rhythmic structure to the poem. However, there's clear and distinct beginning, middle, and end (the CYCLE). The beginning is the arrival of the young male guests, with an emphasis on their youth and innocence. The middle is the boys talking about age and evaluating their strengths over one another ("I could beat you up"). The end is the gathered boys, guided by a leader that shouts "We could easily kill a two-year old", in agreeance of their strengths over the little ones below them. The poem, with its clear storytelling structure, displays and exemplifies the cycle of boys turning into men through war and violence. The hyperbolic exaggeration of the ages of the boys is used to shock (?) the reader and to make the cycle more prominent, demonstrating the dangers of when the cycle leaks into the lives of kinder-aged boys. The final two lines serve as an attempt to be optimistic about the violent boys (they continue to play make believe to celebrate the son's birthday), but, in fact, it only makes the poem darker and more cynical. It serves as a message to most likely preserve the youth and innocence of our children.